The Pill

It blocks the truth
Of what I am really feeling
It makes me happy
When I don't really feel it
It is my curse
My load to bear
For something so small
It is so strong
It is just a pill
But this pill is a must
For happiness is the goal
So I will take this curse
And swallow it whole
For the lie is better
Than what was really there

I Won’t Change

You want me to change
But I'm not gunna
You can’t force me
If I don't wanna
So just leave me alone
So I can do what I wanna

Shattered Pieces of My Heart

This heart that pumps
The sweet nectar of life
Has been broken like shattered glass
For it has been shattered so many times
The pieces of my heart are scattered
Like the glass on from a broken window
Every time my heart shatters
I kneel down and start to pick the pieces
Of my once whole heart
The only thing that will hold them together
Is the love of a true soul mate

These Words They Hold

These words they hold
A truth to be told
A life to live
A death bell to toll
So I reach my hands out and I grab hold
To pull back on this that I hold
I will cling to it and never let go
But words can heal and they can hurt
Words cut like a razor, or brush like a feather
Words can make someone laugh or make them cry
The can make someone live or make them die
So watch your words my friend
For your mouth holds a weapon
A weapon with the power of life or death

Rupture of My Soul

You pushed me to the point
Were I just might blow
To rupture my soul
And spew my hate and my hurt
Would be devastating
It would hurt everyone close to me
So back away, so you won’t get affected

The Art of Letting Go

Happiness is the art of letting go
But only pushing away what will hurt you
So if I am pushing away the bad
Why do I miss it so?
If depression wears on me so
Why do I want it back?
Is it because I grew up knowing only that
So now that it is gone
It feels like a part of my life is gone
But I know how much this depression hurts me
So I must break away
From this cycle of self mutilation

Not a One-Time Use Item

You use me when you need me
Then you throw me to the side
Like an obsolete used up tissue
I served my purpose
And now that you used me
I am disposable like a used condom
Well let me tell you something
I deserve to be treated better
Treated like I matter
So I am leaving and I won’t be coming back
I am done waiting hoping your realize
The treasure you are holding in your hands
So I break away in search of the lover who will hold me close
And treat me like a diamond, a priceless treasure
Because that is what I really am

The Shadows Prison

Standing in the shadow of my true potential
Looking up and seeing
What I really could be
No matter where I move
I always have that constant reminder
That I’m not who I could be
This shadow is like a prison
With no walls and no bars
The pressure of your expectations
Are crushing me
Driving me deeper and deeper into the ground

Black Hole of My Soul

My soul is a black hole of death
No light is ever seen
All life is sucked in and never seen again
So why don't you back away
So you don’t get sucked in
Just leave me alone
So I can save your soul

Bloom of Your Love

You send Your glory down like rain
You let Your love fall like snow
And like Your earth I suck it all in
Like Your plants I take Your glory and love
I use it to grow and I flourish and I bloom
And I spread your love like the beauty of the flowers