The Mask

Masks hide what is behind
To take a way what makes us blind
To take a way the mask that hides
Wearing the mask time it bides

Only time it will take
For the mask to break
And the truth to reveal
What is really real

So take off the mask
Though it may be a hard task
But it will pay off in the end

The Earthly Hell

I would rather die
Then live a lie
Living a lie is as bad as hell
For you are tortured every day

It would be so easy
Just to tell everyone
But it’s not that easy
For you have to deal with
Everyone’s reactions

So I keep my secrets to myself
And I go on living my lie
So my torture continues
And I suffer silently

My Demise

These tears I cry
Are my demise
These tears I weep
Show you that I am weak
They fall down
And splash on the ground
I would rather die
Then be living a lie

The Prison You Keep Me In

You can’t hold me hostage forever!!!
Your can’t keep me from having a life
The prison you keep me in is pathetic

You are ruining my life If I wanted to do something
Do you really think that you would be able to stop me?
I’ll find a way
And then you’ll pay
This I promise you

Torn Apart

I love you
You know who you are
I can’t be with you
They tore our two worlds apart
I miss you everyday I live

You were my first
And maybe my last
I hope you move on
But I may not

You have a piece of my hear with you
that I may never get back

Secrets

To be a lier to tell a lie

I lie to you so you will accept me

For if you knew what I hid

You would be repulsed

For my secrets are not expectable

For the real world

Most people would be grossed out

Because my life is less than perfect

But I don’t care it’s not gross to me

It is my life and I am not ashamed

The Fight

My flesh and my soul fight
They fight for dominance
My flesh for the things of this world
My soul for the things of God
They are equally tough and equally strong
In the end I know not who will win
I only hope it is the right one

I Need You by Josh Ziner

I praise you God
Won’t you pour out Your glory
I praise you God
Won’t you show me your love

Cause in my weakness you are there
And my strength comes from you
The power of the Lord radiates from your face
And I need more of you every day

You are the source of my life
My sustaining grace
In my darkest times
You are the candle in the dark

Cause in my weakness you are there
And my strength comes from you
The power of the Lord radiates from your face
And I need more of you every day

Cause I need you Lord
I need you God
No other God will do
Cause I need you Lord

The Addiction

The addiction of something I cannot say
Gets stronger everyday
The push and the pull to do what I know is wrong
Is with me all day long

I find a way to fulfill these cravings
Will it never stop?
I need to fight it so I can come out on top
With every click or every sip
I take one step closer to destruciton

My Burden of Falseness

(Read the poem then read the underlined bolded words for a summary)

I feel fake
Like I am lying to everyone
This secret is burning
Inside me

How I wish I could share
What is on my heart

But no
It is my burden to bear
You won’t understand

The Pill

It blocks the truth
Of what I am really feeling
It makes me happy
When I don't really feel it
It is my curse
My load to bear
For something so small
It is so strong
It is just a pill
But this pill is a must
For happiness is the goal
So I will take this curse
And swallow it whole
For the lie is better
Than what was really there

I Won’t Change

You want me to change
But I'm not gunna
You can’t force me
If I don't wanna
So just leave me alone
So I can do what I wanna

Shattered Pieces of My Heart

This heart that pumps
The sweet nectar of life
Has been broken like shattered glass
For it has been shattered so many times
The pieces of my heart are scattered
Like the glass on from a broken window
Every time my heart shatters
I kneel down and start to pick the pieces
Of my once whole heart
The only thing that will hold them together
Is the love of a true soul mate

These Words They Hold

These words they hold
A truth to be told
A life to live
A death bell to toll
So I reach my hands out and I grab hold
To pull back on this that I hold
I will cling to it and never let go
But words can heal and they can hurt
Words cut like a razor, or brush like a feather
Words can make someone laugh or make them cry
The can make someone live or make them die
So watch your words my friend
For your mouth holds a weapon
A weapon with the power of life or death

Rupture of My Soul

You pushed me to the point
Were I just might blow
To rupture my soul
And spew my hate and my hurt
Would be devastating
It would hurt everyone close to me
So back away, so you won’t get affected

The Art of Letting Go

Happiness is the art of letting go
But only pushing away what will hurt you
So if I am pushing away the bad
Why do I miss it so?
If depression wears on me so
Why do I want it back?
Is it because I grew up knowing only that
So now that it is gone
It feels like a part of my life is gone
But I know how much this depression hurts me
So I must break away
From this cycle of self mutilation