My Existence

The time I spend from you
Is torture in a bottle
Building up till it’s about to explode

My life is for you and my heart is yours
I think of you
And every time I do
I wish I was in your arms
So you could hold me and love me
Make me feel like I am special
Like I matter
And to matter is to exist

So help me to exist
Help me to matter

Sun Shiny Life

Life is good
I can smile all the time
A carefree life is for me
It is so amazing
How my life has changed
From a black dark night
To a sun shiny day
I love my life each and every day

A New Year A New Time

A new year, a new time
A time to screw things up, or make things right
I for one want to make things right
For each thing I have messed up
I want to make one thing right

For lying I will help someone
For gossiping I will defend someone against it

This I do as a decree to me
To help me get better
And to grow
Because growing is the best thing
That we can do for ourselves

The Mask

Masks hide what is behind
To take a way what makes us blind
To take a way the mask that hides
Wearing the mask time it bides

Only time it will take
For the mask to break
And the truth to reveal
What is really real

So take off the mask
Though it may be a hard task
But it will pay off in the end

The Earthly Hell

I would rather die
Then live a lie
Living a lie is as bad as hell
For you are tortured every day

It would be so easy
Just to tell everyone
But it’s not that easy
For you have to deal with
Everyone’s reactions

So I keep my secrets to myself
And I go on living my lie
So my torture continues
And I suffer silently

My Demise

These tears I cry
Are my demise
These tears I weep
Show you that I am weak
They fall down
And splash on the ground
I would rather die
Then be living a lie

The Prison You Keep Me In

You can’t hold me hostage forever!!!
Your can’t keep me from having a life
The prison you keep me in is pathetic

You are ruining my life If I wanted to do something
Do you really think that you would be able to stop me?
I’ll find a way
And then you’ll pay
This I promise you

Torn Apart

I love you
You know who you are
I can’t be with you
They tore our two worlds apart
I miss you everyday I live

You were my first
And maybe my last
I hope you move on
But I may not

You have a piece of my hear with you
that I may never get back

Secrets

To be a lier to tell a lie

I lie to you so you will accept me

For if you knew what I hid

You would be repulsed

For my secrets are not expectable

For the real world

Most people would be grossed out

Because my life is less than perfect

But I don’t care it’s not gross to me

It is my life and I am not ashamed

The Fight

My flesh and my soul fight
They fight for dominance
My flesh for the things of this world
My soul for the things of God
They are equally tough and equally strong
In the end I know not who will win
I only hope it is the right one